From now on decide that you want to practice the 5 commandments (aagyas). By just saying or even thinking that “I am unable to” do so create obstacles on the path of attaining awareness. So daily ask for the strength by repeating 5 to 10 times, “O Dada Bhagwan! Please give me the awareness so that I can follow and practice the 5 commandments.” Then the scientific circumstances will work accordingly.