It was the time when I was in MCA-4th Semester. After that I was going to appear in Campus Selection. I was an average scoring student and belonged to a poor family. I was preparing with the doubt in my mind whether I will be selected for the job or not? Because I was bad at English and did not know how and what to speak with others. I was unaware with the situations that were going around me. All the negative events and failures of my past kept coming again and again to my mind. In the first company I cleared the written test, which was unexpected for me, then cleared GD round, but the section (Personal Interview) in which I am more confident, I got rejected. This was unexpected for me; this really shocked me. I had taken Gyan in December-2009 and it was October-2010 when I was in Sem-4. To forget it I started watching Pujya NiruMaa and Pujyashree satsang programs, and then I again studied with more dedication as if nothing had happened with me. In the next company I couldn't even clear the written exam; image the situation of a person whose parents have lots of expectations from him/her to get a job. Third company came and again I failed in the written test.
All my friends who were facing a similar situation like mine either started crying or feeling depressed or started talking negative about others. I never talked negative or bad about any one. By my such a reaction they started telling me, you don’t have tension at all. I got rejected by 9 companies but without telling anything to my parents I faced every situation with equanimity, no matter how many times they asked I always replied I will surely get placed. Those days I also took help of one Mahatma who had introduced me Dada’s Gyan. I informed him everything and he guided me each and every step to apply Dada’s Gyan, and follow '5 Agyas’ and remain in Sambhaav (Equanimity). That is the very reason even after not able to clear written in more than 9 companies I had not given up to circumstances. Previously, years back, I was the one who got depressed in even a single failure in my BCA exams and had taken medicines for 3 months. But not this time. I had fought not only with outer situation but against inner feelings as well, with Dada’s Gyan and His grace. After 1-step ahead off-Campus was waiting for me, whoever has appeared the off-Campus they can know the competition in Off-Campus, but I was ready to face it as well. That was the last company (13th) and in this I got selected. Till now almost all of my friends had got placed, even some were placed twice also. Image the situation how much tension and suffering one has. While I was waiting outside Interviewer Panel Room, I told myself, “Go…. Dada, NiruMaa and Swami all are with you, and you are going to rock today”. In the interview they asked technical questions, then about my family and at last was HR round. They asked one question to which I had a slip of my tongue and on hearing that they all burst out laughing. When results came it was unbelievable for me and my family that I had got it, finally. Tears had come from my eyes and my heart spoke, 'Dada has listened to my prayer.' Now I am working as Computer Programmer in a very high profile Bank. See friends getting placement or not is another thing but keeping equanimity, courage, positivity, confidence, free from sufferings and tensions, from where will we get in life?
- Jai Sachidanand. Himanshu Kushwaha, Bangalore